Remembering Dreams....

As I sit here, sore pretty much head to toe, again in not so attractive gym clothes, I ponder. If I think back to my youth (because today I feel the age of the crypt keeper) did I ever imagine that my life would be consisting of working, working out, cleaning, laundry, taking out the garbage, helping my mother with 5000 tedious jobs a week and sleep? I think my dreams were a bit grander back then. I believe my plan was to marry @ 23. Have kids @ 28 and live happily ever after. (I am at this moment sticking my tongue out and making an appropriate sound effect) But, I also never dreamed I would be surrounded by such wonderful people and frankly, I didn't think I would have ever had the discipline to be on a diet for 9 months and be succeeding, either.

The reason I bring this up, is, I had a really crappy day yesterday. I can't put a finger on what exactly was the problem, but I was certifiably grumpy, and I couldn't shake it, no matter how I tried. My trainer, I'm sure, went home and had an adult beverage after working with me yesterday. He is all about auras and feelings and "sensed my melancholy aura" during our workout. I believe I told him to back off. Not nice, I agree and I did apologize later, but one of the downsides of being the "life of the party" in most situations is there is no hiding a foul mood from others and my "melancholy aura" didn't want to be recognized! I guess with the world the way it is right now, it is so hard to find joy. Everyone is walking around with their own fears and issues and I can only imagine if there are telepathic people in the world, how many of them are jumping off bridges to escape all the whining!

But, the good news is there is always someone in your life, that can bring you out of your funk! Yesterday, it was my sister, who I went to the gym with and sympathized with my "bicycle cardio purgatory" and rode one with me, while attempting to grade papers at the same time. The facial expressions alone were worth the pain I endured on my butt! She and I have decided to form a secret society of dieters, called the skins. She cracks me up and I truly felt better afterward. I just hope that if any of my pals are in the pit of despair, and need a lift, I will be able to pay it forward!! I am available. :)