Well....Just When You Think You've Got Stuff Figured Out....You Were Wrong!

Me & Todd. I Love My Friend!!

So....the whole dating thing. I know you are all pretty sick of this topic, but it is my "thing" unfortunately right now, so please bear with me. I'm sorry, but men...how do I say it?? Men that are in my age range....if they are single and almost 40, there is a reason. Several probably. UGH. I truly am at a loss as to why these individuals are even attempting to date. First of all, the whole....just stop calling you for no reason thing. What the? It is so RUDE!! I would so appreciate even a little text of "I'm just not feeling it" or "I don't think this is working", etc. way more than the whole...you think it is going great and then.....(you begin to hear crickets chirping because of the silence) And, not understanding right away this has occurred, I continue to assume we are dating and call and/or text to see how they are doing, all the while, waiting the mandatory every other day, so you don't seem like a stalker, rest period. This whole dating rule thing is sooooo lame!! Again I say...UGH.

THEN...if it isn't bad enough, trying to not seem like a stalker, you don't quite understand when they don't call and/or text back right away, because you aren't aware of the whole "moved on" routine has occurred, so you become paranoid and don't call and/or text for another 2 days so you don't seem needy, and then when you do and they don't respond, AT ALL (so rude) and you feel like a total idiot because you didn't know they had moved on while you were still trying to play the game....apparently by yourself. AHHHHHHHH!!!!!! So frustrating!!

So, when this occurred, yet again with a guy I actually liked, I was feeling pretty darn unlovable. Man, why did I ever start this nightmare to begin with?? So, my pal Todd dragged me out Saturday night to his karaoke bar so I wouldn't crawl into the unlovable pit of despair, again. It was pretty quiet and I was feeling pretty miserable, when I decided, what have I got to lose?? I decided to sing. It was nerve wracking to say the least, but I have always wanted to sing karaoke and it was a small crowd, so I decided to give it a shot. Well, Todd was excited and told me he would make me sound good, which he did btw, and I sang Pat Benatar's "All Fired Up" which is one of my fav's of hers. I did alright, but it was fun and I was feeling a little better. Then, I went to sat down, just in time to see a total cutie walk in....uh oh. This was unfortunate because I had just sworn off dating, so what was a girl to do?? I totally flirted with him anyway, because he seemed totally out of my league. Apparently, he wasn't. YAY for me :) He was darling and we totally hit it off. Well, we'll see. I've felt this before, and you know the rest. But, I learned a valuable lesson that day.....I am not the girl in my head of yesterday, that isn't date able and has to settle because there aren't any other options. I really needed to know that. I am definitely going to be a LONG work in progress.....I tread on.....