I have to say, 2009 has definitely been a roller coaster ride for me. WHEW! I am exhausted and it is only February 12th. There have been a lot of awesome moments and others...well....let's just say have tested my limits. But, I have to say that with all that has gone on, one thing I can say for definite certainty is I am blessed with a wonderful, albeit nutty family and absolutely fantastic lovely friends, who love me and support me in all my moments holding "the crazy stick!" So, let me catch my breath and give you a little recap.....WHEW. So, started out the year bummed. Didn't see much changing for the new year and I was annoyed. Well, be careful what you wish for. Then I met Rich. Well, sort of. We met on Facebook through a friend and for 2 weeks, I was in frustrated happy land because he lived in California. Ok. So I went for a visit. It fizzled. Ok. Came home, and was beaten by the "crazy stick" for a week while I tried to figure out what went wrong. Then, I let it go. Had to, before the restraining order was issued. But, a few of my friends did point out that I was going through what most teenagers do when they go through a break up, I just happened to be going through it at age 36. So, I felt a little better about my erratic behavior. BTW, I am doing much better now, thanks for checking. Then, I decided to have a free for all weekend, to get over my broken heart. And I did!! Whew Nelly! There are many photos on Facebook scrap booking all of my drunken moments! But, I needed to cut loose and I did! (Sorry Mom) It was a lot of late evenings of me stumbling in! I loved it!! Here's the problem....I gained 4 pounds and then couldn't get back into regular life. It was like becoming a crack whore all over again. UGH. Then, I went to a mini reunion of Murray High Gals. It was fun to see everyone again. But, I have to say as we were going around the table catching everyone up, I got a little intimidated and I started to feel like I did when I was in High School. They were truly sweet all of them, but it happened just the same. UGH. I don't know why it happened. Luckily, I was sitting by one of my pals Misty,
who I reconnected with awhile back, and she totally jumped in and told everyone my story and made me remember who I really am. She told them about my weight loss success, about rebuilding my business, my travels I had gone on, and she was my champion. I love her. Seriously, I really jumped right back into my 16 year old heavy girl mode, and before I knew it I had eaten everything in sight and I was shrinking into the chair. It was truly ridiculous. These ladies couldn't have been nicer to me and I was doing a real number on myself, without help from anyone else. SO.....then we went to see the movie....He's Just Not That Into You...after dinner. Now, normally I am all over a chick flick, but, I was still a little raw from the break up, so perhaps this wasn't the best choice for little old me to see. It wasn't. I cried a little during this comedy and I am not a soft cryer, so it was a lot of work not to make a sound.
Now, please don't think I am looking for pity here. I'm not. I am ok. And, after a pretty big freak out in front of my trainer, I like to call him "Poor Todd" these days because I am a lot to handle, I have started to regroup. I had a mostly good food day yesterday, and I got 2 killer workouts in and I am on the road to well ville. I just need to get through Valentine's Day with all the delicious sugar cookies and I think I'm set. The reason I am over sharing my story, is I feel the need to say Thank you to all my pals who have let me cry.......ALOT.......over the last 2 weeks and haven't given up on me. They have just let me do, say, feel, experience and bitch to my heart's content and they have hugged, loved, listened intently and NEVER brushed me off as I ranted and sobbed over the silliest things. As I heal, which I am, I am ever reminded of the many blessings I have. Most of them are my friends. So, if you are near or far, I adore you. If you are new or old, I cherish you and I am thankful. I love you all!! I am finally treading on.....
I have to say, 2009 has definitely been a roller coaster ride for me. WHEW! I am exhausted and it is only February 12th. There have been a lot of awesome moments and others...well....let's just say have tested my limits. But, I have to say that with all that has gone on, one thing I can say for definite certainty is I am blessed with a wonderful, albeit nutty family and absolutely fantastic lovely friends, who love me and support me in all my moments holding "the crazy stick!" So, let me catch my breath and give you a little recap.....WHEW. So, started out the year bummed. Didn't see much changing for the new year and I was annoyed. Well, be careful what you wish for. Then I met Rich. Well, sort of. We met on Facebook through a friend and for 2 weeks, I was in frustrated happy land because he lived in California. Ok. So I went for a visit. It fizzled. Ok. Came home, and was beaten by the "crazy stick" for a week while I tried to figure out what went wrong. Then, I let it go. Had to, before the restraining order was issued. But, a few of my friends did point out that I was going through what most teenagers do when they go through a break up, I just happened to be going through it at age 36. So, I felt a little better about my erratic behavior. BTW, I am doing much better now, thanks for checking. Then, I decided to have a free for all weekend, to get over my broken heart. And I did!! Whew Nelly! There are many photos on Facebook scrap booking all of my drunken moments! But, I needed to cut loose and I did! (Sorry Mom) It was a lot of late evenings of me stumbling in! I loved it!! Here's the problem....I gained 4 pounds and then couldn't get back into regular life. It was like becoming a crack whore all over again. UGH. Then, I went to a mini reunion of Murray High Gals. It was fun to see everyone again. But, I have to say as we were going around the table catching everyone up, I got a little intimidated and I started to feel like I did when I was in High School. They were truly sweet all of them, but it happened just the same. UGH. I don't know why it happened. Luckily, I was sitting by one of my pals Misty,
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I love you, Crissy! Here's to happier moments and better chick flicks. :)
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