I Want To Be 212 Degrees All The Time!!

So, I've been in a funk for a couple of weeks. No surprise there for anyone that has the pleasure of being around me....ugh. I've been trying to find the lesson that I am supposed to learn in this latest life altering experience I've been through......Haven't been able to.......until Wednesday. I was complaining, AGAIN, to my poor trainer Todd (Sorry Todd) and he said something that really clicked in for me. (Really....everyone should have a Todd) Anyway, he said that he thought the lesson I needed to learn was, that I needed to find happiness completely in me. Stop looking for it in others and when life throws you a curve ball, as it seems to do for me lately on a regular basis, to appreciate the feelings, but be content in just being me. LIGHT BULB!! OK. I get it. Whew. Then my pal Jeff, who manages my 24hr. Fitness gym, gave me a book to read that same day. It is called 212 Degrees. It is a small book about 70 pages and it is an inspirational book about kicking up your life just 1 degree and the HUGE impact it can make on your life and those who share your life. The basic principle is, 211 degrees, water is hot....212 degrees water boils, which causes steam, which can run a locomotive engine. In short....this book rocked my world!! The theory is soo simple and yet, so profound. I want to live a 212 degree life!! I am seeing results from this way of living already and it is Friday morning. Todd asked me yesterday, why I was glowing. I laughed a little and told him it was because I was sweating, but he said I just looked different and sounded different. I thought about it and then I remembered I had said to myself that morning, you are going to be happy today and make a difference. I guess I did feel different. I have just tried to be more aware of my behavior and my actions and have tried a little harder, or worked a little longer and I am already feeling my life take on a whole different path. I am so excited to see what happens next!! So, I want everyone to read this book. You can get in online and there is also a movie you can watch that gives you a little in site into what it is all about. I am hopefully going to be able to post the YouTube link so you can watch it, but I am still learning how to do that, so I hope it works. See for yourself what I mean. I tread on.....a little better.....

WANTED.....An Old Fashioned Blind Date!

Here's the thing.....I HATE online dating!! It is ridiculous. It just isn't for me. I need my friends, namely You that are reading this, to help me out of this online world! Open your eyes and ears people and find me someone to date. I am serious. Remember back when all of you were dating a thousand years ago?? You met someone nice.....thought of a friend who they would get along with......and gave them their phone number?? This is my request. I know you can do it. There is someone at the office, church, supermarket, favorite sporting goods store, Dr.'s office, or a mailman perhaps, that you've met or will meet, that might make a good match for me. I know this might seem odd to request a blind date on a blog, but why not?? I don't want to deal with all the drama of the witness protection dating sites, like eharmony, or all the men from other countries that need a visa from match.com and don't even get me started on the free matching websites.....good Lord. I want someone sweet, funny and cute, preferably with a job, their own transportation and maybe not a felon. They can have kids, I would be a great step mom! And....because of my recent dating experience, I have discovered a certain liking of riding Harley Davidson motorcycles.....not a deal breaker if they don't have one, but I enjoy that as well. I'm just throwing it out there! So, I'm asking. If you meet anyone that you see potential for a match for me, let me know. I can't take this new way of meeting people much longer.....I am beginning to think I was meant to be single. I tread on.....

So...what to do when you have life throw you a curve ball??

I have to say, 2009 has definitely been a roller coaster ride for me. WHEW! I am exhausted and it is only February 12th. There have been a lot of awesome moments and others...well....let's just say have tested my limits. But, I have to say that with all that has gone on, one thing I can say for definite certainty is I am blessed with a wonderful, albeit nutty family and absolutely fantastic lovely friends, who love me and support me in all my moments holding "the crazy stick!" So, let me catch my breath and give you a little recap.....WHEW. So, started out the year bummed. Didn't see much changing for the new year and I was annoyed. Well, be careful what you wish for. Then I met Rich. Well, sort of. We met on Facebook through a friend and for 2 weeks, I was in frustrated happy land because he lived in California. Ok. So I went for a visit. It fizzled. Ok. Came home, and was beaten by the "crazy stick" for a week while I tried to figure out what went wrong. Then, I let it go. Had to, before the restraining order was issued. But, a few of my friends did point out that I was going through what most teenagers do when they go through a break up, I just happened to be going through it at age 36. So, I felt a little better about my erratic behavior. BTW, I am doing much better now, thanks for checking. Then, I decided to have a free for all weekend, to get over my broken heart. And I did!! Whew Nelly! There are many photos on Facebook scrap booking all of my drunken moments! But, I needed to cut loose and I did! (Sorry Mom) It was a lot of late evenings of me stumbling in! I loved it!! Here's the problem....I gained 4 pounds and then couldn't get back into regular life. It was like becoming a crack whore all over again. UGH. Then, I went to a mini reunion of Murray High Gals. It was fun to see everyone again. But, I have to say as we were going around the table catching everyone up, I got a little intimidated and I started to feel like I did when I was in High School. They were truly sweet all of them, but it happened just the same. UGH. I don't know why it happened. Luckily, I was sitting by one of my pals Misty,

who I reconnected with awhile back, and she totally jumped in and told everyone my story and made me remember who I really am. She told them about my weight loss success, about rebuilding my business, my travels I had gone on, and she was my champion. I love her. Seriously, I really jumped right back into my 16 year old heavy girl mode, and before I knew it I had eaten everything in sight and I was shrinking into the chair. It was truly ridiculous. These ladies couldn't have been nicer to me and I was doing a real number on myself, without help from anyone else. SO.....then we went to see the movie....He's Just Not That Into You...after dinner. Now, normally I am all over a chick flick, but, I was still a little raw from the break up, so perhaps this wasn't the best choice for little old me to see. It wasn't. I cried a little during this comedy and I am not a soft cryer, so it was a lot of work not to make a sound.

Now, please don't think I am looking for pity here. I'm not. I am ok. And, after a pretty big freak out in front of my trainer, I like to call him "Poor Todd" these days because I am a lot to handle, I have started to regroup. I had a mostly good food day yesterday, and I got 2 killer workouts in and I am on the road to well ville. I just need to get through Valentine's Day with all the delicious sugar cookies and I think I'm set. The reason I am over sharing my story, is I feel the need to say Thank you to all my pals who have let me cry.......ALOT.......over the last 2 weeks and haven't given up on me. They have just let me do, say, feel, experience and bitch to my heart's content and they have hugged, loved, listened intently and NEVER brushed me off as I ranted and sobbed over the silliest things. As I heal, which I am, I am ever reminded of the many blessings I have. Most of them are my friends. So, if you are near or far, I adore you. If you are new or old, I cherish you and I am thankful. I love you all!! I am finally treading on.....